Tinker

In life, unexpected things happen without any explaination or reasoning. This past weekend I lost the most precious thing to me. My dog that I have had for 3 years and who was my best buddy in the whole world was hit by a car and died. I truly feel like I just lost my child and my whole family has been in a state of mourning. To those of you who are not big animal lovers or dog owners, you might not understand how devastating this can be. I took her everywhere. To family member's houses, friends, anywhere I could get away with it. She was not my pet, she was my baby. Joseph and I have been so devastated for many days and can look at eachother and both break down in tears. We can't stand to be at the house alone or at night because it feels so empty and quiet. For the first few days after she was gone, I would swear I could hear her or that she was in the other room, then when I realized she was gone my heart would break all over again. I know it might sound crazy but our little family is no longer complete with her not there. It's funny how you think that your pets rely on and need you for their survival and existance, but the truth is I needed her. I depended on her for so many things. She made me laugh, she made me smile, she kept me warm at night, and most of all she loved me unconditionally no matter what. She was the best thing in my life. I am so thankful that I have Joseph through this whole experience becuase without him I would not make it. I cried for 2 whole days and God bless my whole family who sat right there with me and let me cry and cried with me! I am so thankful to have all of them there to support me. The only thing I can think of that may be some good from this terrible experience is that Joseph and I have become so much closer. We are having to lean on and depend upon one another to make it through the day. I have learned not to sweat the small stuff and that the petty stupid things in life are not worth arguing about. Try to remember in life that things we love and cherish can be gone in a heartbeat and to show anyone that you love how much you really do love them everyday. You never know when you might not have another opportunity to do that. I love you Tinkerbelle and I won't ever forget you and how much joy you brought to my life!